I'm a 30 year old, female, US citizen who has fallen in love with a man from Argentina. The journey began a couple years ago. As I'm an online gamer, I found myself friends with a fellow game nerd. We ran around, shooting at each other - it was instant friendship. At the time, I was in a committed relationship, we owned a home together, a couple dogs and a couple cats. Things were seemingly good until a shift happened in our lives. (This will not be a detail regarding that relationship.) Needless to say, that 12 year relationship ended and I found myself moving out on my own for the first time, ever... completely on my own at the age of 30.
Rewinding to the beginning of 2011: This wonderful friend had come to the states and was visiting someone in California. His trip was scheduled for a few weeks and when things didn't go well there, I invited him to come stay with us (meaning me and the now-ex) so he had a friend to hang out with. There was the fear of the unknown. We got along wonderfully online, but when we met face to face, was this man going to be, in real life, the same as who I'd spoken with time and again online? It turns out he was wonderful. Very kind and sweet, soft spoken and fun, just as I felt he had been for the couple of years we'd been friends in game. We hit it off instantly, hanging out in my living room, competing yet again, this time on the Wii.
Since moving out on my own, my online buddy and I began talking about a relationship between him and myself. It had/has been difficult sifting through all the emotions of the separation from my ex, and Charlie was there to comfort me, let me vent, talk about whatever popped into my mind. He gave me pearls of wisdom from his own experience, and simply held my hand and made me laugh as I experienced similar emotions as he did going through his own divorce.
Charlie came to visit in March, a short time after I moved into my new place. We were swept away with each other. It was like a fantasy. We gazed into the eyes of our new love, with silly grins and hearts floating around our heads. When one of my best friends saw us together and realized how hard we'd fallen for one another, the hopeless romantic Rachel bought us a gift his last night in town. This beautiful token was the Mizpah coin. The coin is cut in half and contains the bible verse Genesis 31:49 which reads, "Lord watch between me and thee while we are absent one from another." He and I held the two halves together in our hands for a while, "charging" it with our energy before putting our perspective halves around the other's neck.
When the time came to taking him to the airport, we were both teary and I felt as though he was being ripped away from me. So, we made plans for the rest of the year. He would fly out here in May and July, and I was to visit him in the fall. Each of his visits here only solidified the need, our desire for one another, and my trip to Argentina was... well, wonderful.
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